Sold Out

Ah….

well, as one of my friends informed me, i have only written on my blog twice since the last break. so i am going to make that a final three. school is nearly over, with only one more day. hurrah! then i can sleep in every day and hang with my friends! yes!!! not that i don’t like school, but it gets very busy and very stressful with keeping up with homework and extra curricular activities. well, something very sad and sudden happened in the lives of all of us youth here. our youth director, benji, had to leave on friday for good because of personal issues. it was quite a shock to all of us to hear this and for many, it was very depressing and heart-breaking. i know many of us felt let down and it was hard to believe it was actually happening. benji had meant sooo incredibly much to us and taught us so much and we grew to love him so much. it felt like a nightmare that we wanted to wake up from…and now, he’s gone. he wants to come back, maybe eventually, but i know our lives will never be the same. so it’s been hard to find God in the midst of this, but we keep telling each other that God has a much bigger plan in store that we don’t know and maybe will never know. so for now, we just have to hold on to that promise and trust Him for what He knows is best for us. i am going to be working at the Teen Centre here starting next term. every friday night we have a night where the youth make food and sell it restaraunt style to the families of the community and i filled out an application and had an interview and next term, i will be working! yeah! and i get paid about a dollar an hour, lol, but hey, at least it’s something! actually, we basically only get paid so that when we go back to the states, we have at least something to tell them as a reference. but hey, it will be fun, especially because i’ll be working with my friends. our marching band concert is monday, and i will be happy to get it over with. even though its fun! well, its late here and i’d better get to bed. i luv u all and miss u tons! (those of you that i dont see every day that is) peace everyone! ~the buzzing angel

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The weeks are going by fast…and i am busy, but what else is new? for the most part, school is goin good, with some exceptions of course. for some strange reason i find myself thinking about furlough, although it’s like a year away. its not like i want to go to America, because of course i dont, but i want to go shopping. really bad. i have this sudden urge to go to a store and buy tons of stuf that i dont need. the only problem is there are no real stores in PNG in which to do this. sigh i guess i will have to wait. although, the more i think of furlough, the more it reminds me that when i go on furlough, my two really really awesome friends, Anna and Nate leave PNG….for good!!! which really, really stinks because im gonna miss them soooo incredibly much. so i dont want furlough to come, and yet i do. confusing… this whole weeks at school we are doing SAT’s (stanford acheivement tests) which are really annoying just in case you have never had the privelege of experiencing one. lucky you! yes well, anyways. i will survive, but barely. i am thoughtful tonight with lots on my mind. i am thinking of my three brothers and sister-in-law, and missing them like heck. its extremely hard for me, being the only child and something i have to deal with daily. i am also thinking about my life, and whether or not i am living how God wants me to.

well God painted a picture the other day, right before my eyes, as i sat, thinking, he painted a masterpiece a picture of his love displayed over the sky.

some days its hard for me to believe and others, its as easy as 1+1 some say im glad to be so sure and others wonder at my faith.

so i wonder today, what will be the sign? the symbol that shouts his love the sign that proclaims his majesty ill look towards the sky asking for his assurance again, that he will reign.

So God painted me a sign today, a symbol of his love. he painted it right before my eyes and made me know for sure.

-me! (i just made it up so its a little…rough…)

cheers everyone! ~the buzzing angel

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so, uh i havent really written in a while, sorry about that. so ill start where i last left off…

 we didnt win the Uka challenge thing, but its alright becuz it was fun anyhoo. i enjoyed my last week of break and to my dismay, school started up again.

i have all new teachers except for one and they arent too bad. this term i have science, drama, p.e./health, english, social studies/ religious studies and algebra 1, choir, marching band, and softball. so usually i go to school at 7:30 and dont get home until almost 6. so yea that is a normal day for me! i am very busy and even now wondering how i will live through this term, but somehow i am sure i will do it.

a WA team just came for about 2 weeks and left yesterday. they came to do a retreat for us middle schoolers. the team was all young people, mostly in their 20′s. they were a really awesome team! i had so much fun hanging with them and the retreat was awesome. i totally met God there and learned so much. along with having a blast and getting drenched with water at 6 o’clock in the morning. AAAHHH! my whole class came back from the retreat with colds so we are all suffering together. blah. what fun!

so i am extremely busy with school and friends. i hope you all are doing well and enjoying life.

What is this sun that conquers mountains Singing over what has been asleep? What is it that softens all my doubting? It’s you

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Hallo everyone!

Today was day one of the Ukarumpa Challenge…and it was awesome! We had 4 teams of all different ages, from 8th graders to alumni, battling to be the best. We did 7 different events today and my team came first in 4 of those events. Out of the whole day, the pink hippos(that’s my team), came in second with 108 points and we are behind the winning team by 1 point. It was a blast today!

Tomorrow we are going out to the river which will be very fun because we get to get wet! Yeah!

I just wanted to let you know how the first day went and I will write again tomorrow…

Keep smiling and laughing ~the buzzing angel

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so..its still break. but only for a week and a half more!!!!! its so sad…but then all the people come back to Ukarumpa so then its not so bad. but then we have things like homework again. boo hoo. ill get over it though. this break ive just been hanging with friends and acting weird which is a normal occurance for me =D )this week, one of the dad’s here has organized the Ukarumpa Challenge. it is a mock game of Survivor. we had to find our own groups of 3 girls and 3 guys and we are going against 3 other teams. it will be soooo fun! we are battling to be the best in Uka. then the next week school starts. yeah! not. and the weekend school starts is a spiritual retreat for the middle schoolers. i cant wait cuz it’ll be awesome. yea so not much to say, but just wanted to catch up. (so, Nathan, u can stop bugging me until i get behind again. =D) hope ya’ll are doing good.

 

in a world as bright

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ya know, too often i think we get caught up in the fast pace of our lives. there is a Rascal Flatts song in which they say, “sometimes it feels like this old world spins faster, than it did in the old days. so naturally we have more natural disasters from the strain of a fast pace. sunday was a day of rest, now its one more day for progress and we can’t slow down cuz more is best, its all an endless process.” then later on it continues, “sometimes i hear this old earth shouting through the trees as the wind blows. thats when i climb up here on this mountain to look through God’s window. now i can’t fly but i got two feet that get me high up here above the noise and city streets. my worries disappear.” too often i think we get caught up in our busy lives and our own agendas that we forget about the One this is all about. we forget about His agenda for our lives and we go on worrying about everything, when really, we have no need to worry because He has absolutely everything under His control.

in a book once, i read about a christian girl who didn’t know what to read in her quiet time, so a friend suggested she start in the new testament and read only the red letters. in other words, what Jesus had to say. i thought about it, and i decided to try it. it is really neat to be able to read, just what Jesus has to say, without knowing the whole story, maybe, but just His thoughts.

Pages filled with a holy message Sealed with a kiss from heaven On a scroll long ago Phrases, words that were bound together Now have the power to sever Like a sword evermore Heed the words divinely spoken May your restless heart be broken Let the supernatural take hold There is love in the red letters There is truth in the red letters There is hope for the hopeless Peace and forgiveness There is life in the red letters In the red lettersOne man came to reveal a mystery Changing the course of history Made the claim he was God Ageless, born of a virgin Mary Spoke with a voice that carried through the years It’s persevered

~the buzzing angel

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Well, it is officially the end of the school year. but let me back up a bit. banquet was awesome and our concerts were great. at awards nite, i got a certificate thingy for highest grade in band so that was cool. grad for the 12th graders was also the other nite. it was fun watching all of their excited faces and celebrating with them. but unfortunately, then come the good-byes. i have now found something about ukarumpa that i truly hate, other than the lack of malls, and that is the amount of good-byes one has to say while living in PNG. i have come to the conclusion that it is no fair. to live in such close proximity with all of your best friends, no matter wat the age, and then have to say goodbye and have them leave to go 9,000 some miles away. ITS NOT FAIR!!!! sigh

 but it is break. and there is also the excitement of all of your friends coming back from furlough so its hard, because you don’t know whether to be excited or sad. three of my really good friends are coming back from furlough so i am happy about that.

it is just hard to be happy in the midst of sorrow but i know with Jesus, it is possible. but at least i get to sleep in and hang loose during break and just take a deep breath. sorry if this is a bit of a depressing entry….

fill me, Lord

 

“Whether your stars are made of paper of bright blazes of faraway suns, my hope is that today you soar.” -Natalie Lloyd

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Ok, now that i have gotten some rest, here is an extended version of sports day(s). on friday, i went out the school at about 8 and later on, did softball throw, 800m, high jump, 4x200m relay, and medley relay. you know the results for those, so i wont go through the burden of telling you again. on saturday, i went out at about 8 again and later i did 100m, 400m, and 4x100m relay. high jump started at about 1 meter and we worked up from there. like i said, i have done better in practice so that was kinda dissapointing. in softball throw, i had also done better in practice. in practice i got around 23.17 meters and in the event, i only got around 20 meters. sorry for all of you out there who only speak in feet and inches, but thats what you get for living on the wrong side of the world! haha. or not. ok moving on. i had fun on sports day(s) despite the fact that i had a wicked cold so it made it hard breathing but i still did well. and in the end, beta won!!! go beta!!! (oh and in case you didnt get it, the little song thingy at the end of my last posting was the beta cheer.  i cheered so much yesterday that im surprised that i can still talk. although im used to talking so….yea. ok. nevermind.

today in church, 3 of the senior guys spoke to us which was an interesting diversion. they spoke on temptation, depression, and pain. i won’t go into detail on every one, but the last one, pain, really stuck in my mind. The guy who spoke to us about that is our school president. He is a great guy. he said that God, has gone through so much pain that we cannot even imagine. he asked us how many other religions do we know that their god went through pain. he also said that when we are experiencing emotional and physical pain, that we should go to God, because he knows best what we are going through. he said that all through the Bible, it says when we experience pain, that we should look ahead, to heaven, to the good things that are coming. he also said that eternity is a really long time and that heaven is a really great place and he encouraged us to look ahead to the good times and all the joy that we will have. he mentioned that in John 16:22 it says, ” Therefore you now have sorrow; but i will see you again and your heart will rejoice, and your joy no one will take from you.” so, just be encouraged, if you are going through a hard time that it will pass and that God knows your pain so talk to him and that in the end, you will have great joy that no one and nothing can take from you.

well, only a few more weeks of school left, 2 weeks and 2 days to be exact. holy cow, its been going so quickly. i cant wait for break cuz when it comes, i can sleep in and chill out. cuz i need the rest really badly!

well, i better go do some homework(oh goody), but i just wanted to give you a better overview of sports day(s).

 

You are so awesome, God

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Well, we just got done with sports day!!! (deep breath) its over!!! im so happy. i did really well in like all my events so im like rock on! ok here is my results…..

 blue ribbons(1st):

4x100m relay

4x200m relay

 

red ribbons(2nd):

medley relay(2 100m, 1 200m and 1 400m)

softball throw

 

white ribbon(3rd):

100m dash

 

yellow ribbons(4th):

high jump

400m dash

800m run

 

em tasol…oops, that means that’s it. in high jump, i did worse than i usually do and in the 100, i did way better than i thought i would! so it was a good day, well, actually 2 days and i am officially tired. so i just wanted to let ya’ll know what my results were and beta won the whole 2 days!!!! wahoo!!!!!!

 beta, beta, beta….oi oi oi! beta, beta, beta….oi oi oi! beta! oi! beta! oi! beta, beta, beta….oi oi oi!

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Ah, don’t you just love the end of the school year? it’s so exciting! our school sports day is coming up, in 2 weeks, and everyone is getting ready. the school is split up into two teams, alpha(red) and beta(blue) and the whole day and a half is competition between the two. After school almost every day, the sportsy kids go out to the field and train for the big day. Today, i practiced high jump, hurdles, and different types of sprinting events. Not to say that i am that great at these events, but hey! a gurl can wish can’t she? high jump is really fun if you can actually jump over the bar, but when it gets too high for you to jump over, so that you jump into the bar, it really hurts! i did that one too many times i think. hurdles is also fun, as long as you don’t trip over the hurdle. okay, don’t get the impression i do this all the time…i mean, im not a total ditz!hehe, but its fun anyway.

Banquet, which is a dinner and night of fun for the 11th and 12th graders, is coming up, too. All the parents of the 11th and 12th graders, who put the night on are practically living at the teen centre and all the kids are getting really excited…its the talk of the school. along with sports day, that is.

All the academic stuf is wrapping up too with tests and the end of textbooks. its so exciting…i cant wait! all the band and choir members are practicing and trying desperately to get ready for concerts and all that jazz…haha, get it? jazz? sorry, ok that was really lame!

im trying to write this while watching a rerun of full house so if this doesnt make sense, im sorry. but i usually dont make sense, so this shouldn’t be anything new.

  I wanna sing of Your mercy