Sold Out

“Wishing is good, but don’t ignore today. Every second is precious. Sometimes we aren’t even wishing for the thing we really need… You might be waiting for that thing you always wanted, when that thing you always needed is staring you in the face.”
That was in a book that i’ve read several times now. one of my favorites. that has kinda been me lately. id been having a hard time dealing with being the only kid in my family right now. my brothers are all miles away and i have found myself really missing their wisdom and company. i miss being able to go into the next room and just talk with them. and my dad helped me to realize something the other night. ya know, God totally knew how i would feel when we moved here and phil left. He so knew that i would be lonely and that i would miss them. and even before phil left, God let me have friends and get to know them and develop relationships with them so that when my bro left and i was alone, i would have those friends to turn to. here, i have so many friends i dont know what to do with them all. and they are always there for me, along with my parents, just when i need them. it seems like a really obvious thing, that God placed them in my life for this time, but i was too caught up in my pity-party about being all alone, that i didn’t even realize that they were there, until now! but now that i think about it, it’s really cool to see how God worked even before the need was there. and He must have a plan for me being an only child right now, so im gonna try really hard to stop wishing for siblings, just realize God has a reason for me being all alone, and that what i really needed all along was right there in front of me. (if that made any sense, ill be very happy)
i had a chance to go into Kainantu today to do some second-hand shopping! oh yeah! it was a blast. i got some very cool clothes, candy(including gum : 0 ), nail polish, and even some glow-in-the-dark stars for my ceiling! lol. it was tons of fun!
the rest of the week, i have 3 drama practices. my class is doing a play for the community in November and we are taking advantage of the extra time during break, and then a drama/mime group from school that i am in is practicing too. so this week is a very dramatic week. hehe. (yea lame, i know, but laugh anyway. it will make me feel better)
and after this week, we have monday and tuesday and then back to school, but i’m not even complaining because i’m looking forward to starting school again. i dont plan on being as busy so i am gonna have fun being free-ish. i got my report card for last term, and despite my extreme business i did really well and my parents were pleased so its all good.

cheers everyone! keep smiling – life is good.

~me

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Ah….

well, as one of my friends informed me, i have only written on my blog twice since the last break. so i am going to make that a final three. school is nearly over, with only one more day. hurrah! then i can sleep in every day and hang with my friends! yes!!! not that i don’t like school, but it gets very busy and very stressful with keeping up with homework and extra curricular activities.
well, something very sad and sudden happened in the lives of all of us youth here. our youth director, benji, had to leave on friday for good because of personal issues. it was quite a shock to all of us to hear this and for many, it was very depressing and heart-breaking. i know many of us felt let down and it was hard to believe it was actually happening. benji had meant sooo incredibly much to us and taught us so much and we grew to love him so much. it felt like a nightmare that we wanted to wake up from…and now, he’s gone. he wants to come back, maybe eventually, but i know our lives will never be the same.
so it’s been hard to find God in the midst of this, but we keep telling each other that God has a much bigger plan in store that we don’t know and maybe will never know. so for now, we just have to hold on to that promise and trust Him for what He knows is best for us.
i am going to be working at the Teen Centre here starting next term. every friday night we have a night where the youth make food and sell it restaraunt style to the families of the community and i filled out an application and had an interview and next term, i will be working! yeah! and i get paid about a dollar an hour, lol, but hey, at least it’s something! actually, we basically only get paid so that when we go back to the states, we have at least something to tell them as a reference. but hey, it will be fun, especially because i’ll be working with my friends.
our marching band concert is monday, and i will be happy to get it over with. even though its fun!
well, its late here and i’d better get to bed. i luv u all and miss u tons! (those of you that i dont see every day that is)
peace everyone!
~the buzzing angel

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