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Looking up-ish

So, today we were back in school….oh yippee. (can’t you totally see the excitement???) we had soccer practice today and we are all like really out of shape….hehe, oops. on Friday we go to Numonohi in Goroka and play the missionary kids from New Tribes Mission. and we get to skip a whole day of school! yeah!!!! on wednesday, we skip half a day of school and go to Kainantu Pottery for art class.  and there is only like 3 and a half more weeks of school and then we are free. so things are looking up-ish. so yea. well, it’s 10 and i’m really tired. so long!

eyes on Youthe whole way through

it’s my choice

to hear Your voice

hold my hand

help me stand

on my feet

and take the heat

for saying no

i won’t let go

to You, Lord

i can’t afford

to walk away

help me stay

hooked on You

my whole life through

by Melody Carlson (Diary of a Teenage Girl)

It’s all about You

Your loveis brighter than fireworks

O my God

Your joy

is more spectacular than a shooting star

Your peace

is more beautiful than the lake in moonlight

Your grace

is more refreching than cool water on a hot day

nothing compares to You

O my God

praise and thanks

I give to You

my God

i’d rather dance with You, Godi’d rather sing Your songi’d rather be Your girl, God

to You, Lord, i belong

You are my first love

i’m nothing without You

my life, my breath, my song, Lord

i’d rather dance with You

by Melody Carlson (Diary of a Teenage Girl)

blah…blah….blah…did i mention blah??

i hate being sick! ok, i don’t have the flu yet but still…i think a bad cold is almost as bad. ok, maybe not quite but still! i have this really bad cold and i cant breathe and i have a bad headache and i feel like sleeping for eternity. and last night i couldn’t sleep at all! bummer. anyways. today is all rainy and dreary which doesnt help my current condition any. but hey, i take what i can get.

since we didnt have school the whole week all the teachers gave us tons of homework, lucky us. so i have to do homework today although i have already done most of it. yea for me. well, thats life i guess.

speaking of school, our theme for the year is mitcha meyka and in case you don’t understand weird highscooler-language the translation is meet your maker. the point is from Ecclesiastes 12:1. “Remember also your Creator in the days of your youth, before the evil days come and the years draw near when you will say, ‘I have no delight in them.’” anyways just thought you might wanna know that, not like you actually did, but now you do know it. way cool, huh?

“take what you can, give nothing back!”…pirate moment…

A crazy house, a weird friend, and no school!!!!

well, on monday my parents went to Australia because of my mom’s eye problem and, because we “had school” i stayed with my friend, Carmin, while my parents were gone. we went to school on monday and then all the highschoolers came back from encounter, and they were all sick! they like had the flu and it was crazy and the clinic was going crazy and they seriously made our principal cancel school. they kept canceling it all week because everyone was getting sick so we didnt have to go to school all week! it was great. except that they also canceled all social activities but hey, it’s worth it if u don’t have to go to school. it was awesome.

carmin has 4 other siblings. one older and 3 younger. lets just say that their house is never quiet. even at night. there is always someone either yelling, crying, watching a movie, listening to music, taking a shower or something else that makes noise. it is what i call a crazy house. but ya know what? i love it! its my idea of a week of fun!

and carmin is something else altogether. she is one of those people who is always smiling and who u can never get mad at and who is a serious dare devil….ya know in finding nemo when they’re like “u have serious thrill issues, dude.” yeah, thats her. and she is so fun. and weird. yea but we won’t go there.hehe…. =D i luv her anyways, despite her weirdness…not like im not weird….. = O )

so yea, it’s been an interesting week and im glad my parental units are back. and contrary to popular belief, i am glad to have a bit of peace and quiet. so life is never dull. well, sometimes, like in the middle of class when the teacher droans on, which doesn’t happen too often, but that’s not the point. the point is that it is 10:15 pm and i’m gonna fall on the keyboard pretty soon.

“and so what we have learned applies to our lives today…” sorry, just a little veggie moment.

 

Long time, no write!

Sorry, I haven’t written in ages. I’ve been so busy with school and friends and life in general. So much has happened lately and I don’t know where to begin.

The other night, one of my friend’s dad was riding his motorbike home from the airport. He was coming around a corner and didn’t see a PMV which is a big vehicle that carries tons of people. He was hit head on and was thrown off his bike. He like went head into the windsheild and dented it. He ended up breaking both of his arms and his leg. The doctors here said that if he hadn’t had his helmet on he could’ve been killed. He was medivaced to Australia that same night and is still in the hospital. Since his son is one of my really close friends, it really freaked me out. I was so scared for him. I guess it was just another excuse to trust God, not that I actually need one or anything.

All the highschoolers have been gone in Madang, one of the coastal cities for a youth thing called Encounter. It’s where they all go down there from like Thursday to Monday and where they have a speaker and it’s just a time for them to really encounter God. The campus was like empty since there was only 2 grades left there and it was kinda cool. We could like be all loud and stuff and no one cared!!

The next few weekends the soccer team has games against the other mission schools around us. That will be fun especially since we get to skip like a whole day of school to go to Goroka, a town about 2 hours from here. I can’t wait.

Oh yeah, and Happy Valentine’s Day late!!! At school, we did this little game thing where all the girls get a little paper heart and they can’t talk to the guys at all and if they do, they have to give them their heart. It’s very tricky and yes, I did lose my heart, right after the lunch bell rang. It was pretty sad actually, but it was fun all the same.

My thirteenth birthday is in 1 month and 9 days, but who’s counting? Me and my really good friend, Anna are gonna have a mixed party this year cuz her birthday is like 6 days after mine or something like that. We can’t wait!!!

So yea. I can’t really think of too much else going on at the moment…yea…not much else. *racking brain* anyways, I’m sure I’ll think of something like 5 minutes after I get offline but oh well. That’s what you get for having short term memory loss, or maybe it’s long term memory loss. Who cares, anyways?

Thank you for listening to “Shut up and Listen”, thank you and goodnight.(You can tell I’ve been watching Princess Diaries lately…hehe, oops.)

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In science, we have to make a bug collection. I know, it sounds elementary, but it is actually fun. A friend of mine and I are working on it together. We never realized how afraid of bugs we were until we actually started. It is very interesting, trying to catch bees and dragonflies and screaming our heads off because we think they are gonna bite us….aaahhh…what fun. Actually, more like what stupidity, but anyways.

My life remains busy with 8 periods and and an extra class. I leave my house at 7:30 and don’t come home until 6:00 on some days. So I have a very busy life at the moment but that is just the way I like it-busy, but busy with friends. One of my best friends came back from Latvia, her home country today with her baby brother. So that was exciting. Not too much has been happening lately…just the same ol’ boring me. Well, maybe not exactly boring….

 Well, I thought it was about time to let you know the whole point and idea of this site…where I got the name and why. So here it is:sold outdon’t hold out

all i am

all i have

all i do

belongs to You

sold out

don’t hold out

mercy, grace, Your love

from above

sold out

on You

by Melody Carlson (Diary of a Teenage Girl)

Well, that’s me in a nutshell.

Another day…

Well, I’m just finishing up another day in Ukarumpa. It was one of those days when it is like sunny, and then it like pours for like 1 minute and then it’s sunny again and it does that all day. It was one of those really boring days when you have no idea what to do. Well, my friends came and rescued me from my boredom and we went walking around Uka enjoying the strange weather. It was so fun. We went singing in the rain and went mud sliding which is a very popular thing when it is pouring down rain and you have nothing better to do. We had tons of fun acting like complete idiots (as usual) and getting dirty, wet and muddy all at the same time. Ah, I love being an MK living in this beautiful country. I just can’t imagine not living here. Being here has meant so much to me and changed me so much….it’s awesome!!! I have tons of really awesome friends and life is just peachy!

What’s up, God?

what’s up with looking down on others?

aren’t we all just sisters and brothers?

why make clubs and bands and cliques?

why build walls or pull mean tricks?

why paste fake smiles on a face

when love that’s real is wrapped in grace?

what’s up with acting all superior?

like you’re as clean as your exterior?

Jesus called them filthy graves-

For He’s the only One who saves

us from insecurity

only He gives purity

make me clean, Jesus

There are a few people at school here who aren’t very popular. They don’t fit in so well and as a result, get picked on. I don’t get that. Just because we aren’t all the same, why do we build barriers and separate ourselves?

 

beneath our layers of fashionand hair and pretension

aren’t we really the same?

don’t we breathe the same air?

pump red blood through our vein? aren’t we made up of bone and flesh and DNA?

so what’s the big deal?

why go and differentiate?

why not simply celebrate

that we are really the same

the same underneath

and our differences are only skin deep

 

I’ll admit that sometimes I am guilty of this. The same thing that makes the blood boil beneath my skin. So I’m here God, at your feet. Begging forgiveness. God, cleans me, purify me, make me holy in Your sight, make me beautiful and pure to Your eyes. Help me to love everyone no matter what their background or who they are. Isn’t that what it’s all about?

 

No matter their looks,

No matter their style,

No matter what color of skin,

It’s all about love, that’s what God says

It’s all about grace and kindness,

So what do we do when the goin’ gets tough,

All we gotta do is go to it with love

I love You, God!!

i wish i knew a language

to express more adequately

my newfound appreciation

for what You’ve done for me

if i were a river,

i’d pour myself out

if i were a star,

i’d burst in the sky

if i were an ocean,

my waves would shout

if i were a volcano,

my lava would fly

but i am just me and all that i am

every breath, every heartbeat i give

every thought, every dream, everything in between

is Yours for as long as i live

i love You, God

This is my prayer to You, Jesus. Take me, and use me for You. I give my all to You…everything I have, every moment I live is for You, God. I’m here waiting for You….use me. I love You Jesus. Amen

In Love

I’ve been reading these books lately that is a fictional diary of a Christian girl. At the end of each entry she writes a poem based on her thoughts right then. Its funny because some of the entries are exactly how I feel and some of them are really convicting and make me think. Anyway I just finished reading this poem that I thought was really cool….here it is:

“God with a Capital G”

o, God, You are wonderful God

You amazing, incredible, beautiful God

thank You for meeting me in my room today

i didn’t know You would be there

but i’m so glad You were

and that You could care for me

and that You could want me for Your own

i will never be the same again

i know it-absolutely

i love You with all i am

from the top of my head to the tip of my toes

i love You as i have never loved anyone or anything before

and yet i believe You love me even more

I just thought that was really cool. Sometimes that is exactly how I feel. I will be posting other of the poems that really strike me every now and then. It rained today. Actually more like poured. I love it when it rains here. The clouds move in over the mountains and the rain is so refreshing, like a new start. I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t live in PNG. I can’t imagine it. Moving to PNG brought so much life and excitement out of me. I think it really brought out the real me. And you know what? I really like the new me. The me who is so in love with life and God. Have you ever heard the song by Rachel Lampa You Lift Me Up? Thats how I feel.”…climbing on a cloud, dancing on a daydream, I don’t have a doubt just how good this life could be…telling all the world why I’m so in love with life…” Yup, that’s me.

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